Dreams 2006

Monday January 2, 2006

I was at some water, on a huge deck - supposedly at disneyland or something. There were two levels of the deck, and I was on top with everyone else, looking down, waiting for some huge parade to begin. The parade was going "west," I remember someone mentioned that. As I took a closer look at the parade, it was mostly all pirates or pirate-themed...The deck I was on tilted to a 90 degree angle and everyone held on to the boards until the deck went back to normal. They said it was an optical illusion. The rest of the time we were running arond on the deck following the crazy parade.

Somehow the parade turned into something else. There was some kind of witch or evil queen. I had won some kind of obstacle and she was putting a ring on my finger and then tried to take it off to change some spell but I swallowed the ring so she couldn't get it. I fell down some hole and it looked like I was in some animals stomach. I had landed on a bunch of bones, flesh and eyeballs. There was one eyeball that kept following me around as I was trying to find my way out - it bothered me so much I ate it to get rid of it.

Then I was at home talking to my dad and aunts/uncles. The subject of my cousin * came up again. My dad told me that she was bragging about drinking vodka in class when she was 14 years old. And I started going off about how I know how much more worse she is but the family has no idea... ugh...why do I keep dreaming of her...usually it's twice a month but now it's been constant... sleeping pills make some crazy dreams.



Tuesday January 3, 2006

He was trying to shove some chandelier thing that was made of seashells, into the fireplace. She told him not to burn it, don't throw away the past. So he didn't.

Torment.



Thursday January 5, 2006

I was at someone's house - the garage was open. And then there was a door in the garage that led to the living room. There were 3 small white/cream colored dogs, and one baby panda bear running around!

Then I was at some outdoor seafood restaurant that was supposed to be in SF. I had some kind of blue lobster dish - the lobster was about 2 feet long, in some conch shell and still alive. So instead of eating it I brought it home and put it on my wall. My mom came in my room and saw it, and I told her she could cook it. She took it off the wall, and the blue lobster grew like 4 feet long but still skinny, it was trying to hold onto her/attack but she handled it like it was nothing. And then walked away with it.

I was outside what was supposed to be my neighborhood but it looked totally different...I remember being in someone else's garage. I remember guys talking but I don't know who... then the neighborhood ended being fake and just a stage of fake houses.

I tried going back to my house but there was a big wooden fence blocking the street...

Then I had a whole bunch of other dreams I'm not going to log down because I don't want to remember them.

LOBSTER: Live lobsters in a dream signify approaching difficulties, but of an annoying rather than limiting nature.

PANDA: This lovable Chinese bear in your dream is telling you that, if you'll just stop feeding your worries, they'll go away.

FENCE: An obstacle dream signifying difficulties ahead; the interpretation depends on what else is happening in the dream and on its outcome.

GARAGE: An empty private garage is a warning that you are in danger of being cheated by someone you trust.



Wednesday January 11, 2006

I was at some house...and my old neighbor was there. (I haven't seen her for awhile in real life cause she left home and is some drug addict now, and I heard she is also possibly bi-polar). But at the house, I was sitting on the floor in some bedroom, and she came in and started arguing with me. So, I blew up on her - I don't remember what I was yelling at her about but I was defending myself and someone else. I was so pissed, that I was shaking when I was pointing at her and screaming at her - it felt so real, the pain and anger.

I was at some other neighborhood, supposed to be mine but looked different. I walked across the street and walked into another neighbor's house..no idea who they were. But I had a card for them in a yellow envelope. There was a husband, wife, and grandmother sitting in the living room. The husband asked me what I was handing them, and I said, "Just a card!" He was the guy from E-Ring. I saw a commercial for that before I went to bed, that's probably why. The wife is a tita that I used to know. I went into their backyards and started playing with either their kids or dogs, I don't remember.

Then I was sitting in my own living room, with my dad and brother. My mom comes to me and is holding a bunch of pantyhose and told me to go to the store to buy some more, and the color was H8. I got pissed and told her I didn't want to go to the store just to buy stupid pantyhose.

I don't really feel like looking up definitions for these dreams because they really don't have any special importance to me.



Friday January 13, 2006

I dreamt that I had to take two people to the airport, one guy and one girl. I don't remember who they were because they kept changing to a different guy and girl. The first girl started off as Kimmie. (I think I had this dream because of you Kimmie, since you're going to the airport today and leaving at 7). Well...I had a small red kid's tricycle thing, with a step in the back. I was supposed to take the couple to the airport, on that red tricycle. Kimmie kept telling me that we had to hurry because we had 30 minutes to get to the Oakland airport. She said it only takes 15 minutes to get there, and I just looked at her like she's crazy cause you can't even get there with a car in 15 minutes...how was I going to get them there on a tricycle in 15 minutes?

Well we arrived at some place - I don't remember if it was a house or an office. There was a BIGGER red tricycle under this one table, and I was contemplating on stealing it so that it'd be easier to ride to the airport. But I left it....

Then I was at some swimming pool. All these girls (probably 20 of them) were sitting around the pool with their legs in the water, and so I sat down and put my legs in the water too. I was looking at what all the girls were wearing, and they were dressed all sexy. I looked at myself and I was wearing this ugly puffy prairie like shirt that was white and had gay blue flowers on it. So...started feeling self conscious. Then, P.Diddy walks in, and sits with his crew on these lawn chairs that were lined up against a wall. He started talking to us. I remember one girl's face, she had orange hair, thick straight bangs, hair in a ponytail. Pale face but red lipstick, black shirt. I've never seen her before. Then, I ended up sitting on one of the lawn chairs, 2 seats away from P.Diddy. There was another girl inbetween us, but she kept leaning towards me to push me and I fell off the chair.



Tuesday January 17, 2006

I was at my cousin's house in Santa Clara with Elmo and Rommel. I guess Rommel was living there, but moving out. So Elmo and I were helping him take all his clothes out of the closet. There was a toilet in the middle of the room, that I was sitting on (and using). Rommel came into the room and asked me if I was alright, and I said yes...when he left, I ran to use the other bathroom. I woke up, and then really had to use the bathroom.



Monday January 23, 2006

Six levels of water, each separated by glass. Each level, had to find an object, then get warped to the next level...Water, glass, wooden pier...



Tuesday January 24, 2006

I had a dream that I was at some place with these witches (that looked like normal girls). I think I was a bug flying around, watching what was going on. They tied E back to back to this girl I don't feel like mentioning. One witch poured gasoline all over E's car - E and the girl were like 4 feet away from it. Then, another witch handed E a water hose which he was able to grab onto. Next to his car, was my car. One of the witches started my car, and I saw a spark come from under the hood, which then ignited E's car on fire. And E tried spraying his car down with the hose.

GAS: Seeing someone overcome by gas predicts news of a scandal.

WITCH: A witch or witches your dream indicate social frolic ahead, but if you're involved in a love affair, they are a symbol of disenchantment.

HOSE: Changes of an adventurous nature are forecast in a dream of a squirting hose; however, if it was used on a fire, it indicates sexual satisfaction and/or an exciting new love affair.

Scandal, disenchantment, affair. Yay.




Wednesday January 25, 2006

I dreamt that there was a large pizza on the countertop in my kitchen, near the sink. I opened it, and someone told me it was okay to eat once slice. So I ate one but it was so good that I kept eating more and more, and then ended up there was only a slice and a half left. And I didn't feel guilty.



Friday January 27, 2006

Had a dream that I was at some restaurant and was walking by and saw some old friends of mine sitting and eating, so I stopped and said hi. Jordan, Aries, Joseph, Rusty, Jerry, Rene, and a few more faces I don't remember. I saw two guys that looked like Rene - one had a yellow shirt on. The other - black. So I leaned my face towards both of them trying to figure out who is who. All of a sudden we were in my living room just hanging out and talking. Aries (wearing a red sweater) was ignoring me, Rene was there with his wife!? (I think he really is married now). His wife didn't like me for some reason. But she showed me some website of their honeymoon and there were pictures of them playing in ocean water or something, near some cliffs. I was happy for Rene. Rene's wife went to the bathroom so I talked to Rene (who was sitting on my green sofa), and I said, "Yeah! Is that your brother? The one in the yellow shirt? I thought it was you!" and he smiled, said "yeah" while bashfully looking at the ground and then I realized HE was wearing the yellow shirt. Jordan was sitting in the hallway somewhat depressed, and we were talking. Then I get a phonecall from ST and he sent me a phone picture of his microwave exploding in his kitchen - it was a vivid picture. It showed brand new oak cabinets, black countertops and a microwave with orange stuff exploding out of it.

Edit 11:23pm: I found out that Rene IS married! And he has like two kids! What a trip.



Saturday January 28, 2006

I was at a gas station pumping gas into this small black truck - until the hose started going crazy and pulled itself out of the gas tank thing and then it started spraying soapy water all over the truck, as I was still grabbing onto it. The gas attendant came and said, "Wait! I have to do this part!" and he took the hose and started soaping down the truck.

I was in some bathroom about to take a shower. I was trying to put this blue showercap on my head and trying to tuck my hair in it but for some reason my hair kept falling out and I couldn't get all my hair in the showercap. Extremely frustrating. But I walked into the shower - the bathtub was filled with blue water but I was still using the showerhead. I used a loofah and tried to put soap on it but it took forever. Then I ended up walking out of the bathroom, naked with my showercap on, with my loofah in my hand....walked out the door which ended up leading to some park with picnic benches. I was walking around still trying to scrub myself with the loofah until it went dry. Then I walked back to the bathroom and finished my shower.



Wednesday February 1, 2006

I guess I was visiting my cousins at Clear Lake again... I was sleeping in a room by myself (the house looked different). I woke up early in the morning - I think I was just wearing a long white t-shirt. I walked out to the dock, and laid down on my stomach with one arm and one leg hanging off the dock. I was staring at the fish that were swimming in the water below - the water was actually clear. I saw blue gills and was looking for bass...as fish were swimming by, they kept getting bigger and more alien-like. One fish swam by and looked at me - it was probably about 3 feet long and fat, and had these weird fins that stretched out and had a 5 or 6 foot span, from top to bottom. It started coming out of the water and I freaked out so I jumped into the air, probably 50 feet....as I was falling down, I missed the deck and started falling towards the water but I started flapping my arms and legs like I was swimming and managed to swim in the air back to the deck. Then, I walked back into the house...



Thursday February 2, 2006

I was running away from someone who was chasing me - not sure who. I started running, and then started jumping up into tall redwood trees to try to hide - there was someone in a monster truck chasing me and driving almost as fast as I was flying and jumping through some city. The monster truck was completing running over and through everything...I just remember feeling panicky and trapped.



Friday February 3, 2006

I was in some line outdoors - reminded me of camp, or somewhat of a flea market combined? I got to the front of the line, and couldn't decide which guy to go to. There were two white guys with long hair, handing out some kinda food. I stood there, and someone yelled impatiently, "Alice! Just pick one! Do you want buttered, or not buttered!?" And I turn around and realized it was my cousin Edwin yelling at me, standing in the middle of the line. So I go up to one of the guys and hold out my hands - he dumps these giant sunflower seeds into my hands. I start cracking and eating them - the seed itself inside was the size of a lima bean.

My brother and I had this beautiful siberian husky - white, grey, and sky blue eyes. He was going to take it for a walk but I wanted to, so he let me...I was walking around some strange neighborhood. Don't remember much after that...



Tuesday February 7, 2006

At the zoo? Walking around alone....passing by shops that had little trinkets, just looked into the windows...



Thursday February 9, 2006

Me, Elmo, Ted and Dom were at this dock area that had a bus stop on it...we were just hanging out there. Ted and Dom said that they got their Great America season passes so that they could dock their boats for free during the season there. I looked to the distance, and there was Great America, right against the water...Elmo said he got one too for his boat, I'm like..."What boat?"

Then all of a sudden I was at Gap. I guess I was working seasonal. I ran into all the old Gap folks I worked with...Mario, Rosanna, Robbie, Jamie, etc... Jamie, the manager, was going around trying to figure out how to dress the dummies/display. She picked out a grey sweater, and long magenta tank top to go underneath. I was just walking around the floor, catching up with everyone and pretending to work, just like I really did in real life. I walked into the stock room trying to find out where the time clock was. New people were looking at me funny. I went back onto the floor, and Rosanna told me to help Jose make burgers. So, I walk out of Gap into another store that looks like a huge freezer. And there's Jose and two other mexican guys, making hamburger meat. I helped them marinate some chicken.

Somehow I ended up in my house, in the living room, with him. He started telling me, how him and her met...how she showed up at his work crying one day. How she started seeing him even though she was still with her boyfriend. And how he was seeing her, while he was with someone else as well. He said, "Doesn't matter...my girlfriend was never around anyway." I asked why, and he said, "Because she hates my guts." Then he started going into more history, that I didn't really feel like listening to...so I walked into my backyard which turned into a forest that took me in...



Friday February 10, 2006

Man I am having some messed up, disturbing dreams.

First dream I was a lion cub, running around these mountain slopes covered in snow. I was chasing an adult lion around the slopes and then we started chasing the shadows on the snow because the sun was rotating around us quickly.

Second dream I was in line for something and this one guy with a kid, let me go ahead of him. I go to the register and pay - and then when I'm done paying the guy comes back and says "Hey that's mine! You stole that from me!" and tries to reach into my bag, to get this colorful tin thing I had that had a lot of cash in it. I screamed, "I knew it! You tricked me! That's why you let me ahead of you in line.." All of a sudden I'm shoving and squishing something into my metal wallet. Somehow, I fit that guy into my 3x5 wallet. I tried closing it but he kept pushing it open - so I got some tape and wrapped it around to hold it down meanwhile so he couldn't open it and get out. Then, my wallet turned into a pen. And he was inside the taped up pen. I was running around, figuring out what I should do with it - by then I think he was dead inside the pen. I went home, and threw the pen in the fireplace. I look again, and there's his skull in the fireplace, full size. I freak out, so I get a pen and start stabbing the skull, making it turn into ashes in the process.

Freaking CSI Las Vegas - I watched it last night and some parts really freaked me out and I guess it got my imagination going.

LION: A lion featured in your dream is a symbol of social distinction and/or business leadership. If you heard the lion roar, you are likely to have to cope with jealousy from someone close to you. A friendly lion cub is a forecast of a new and valuable friendship.

KILLING: If you dreamed of killing someone, whether intentionally or by accident, it signifies a period of severe emotional stress during which you must make a heroic effort to control your temper.

Keywords: SEVERE EMOTIONAL STRESS.

I also had a dream the other night and ended up waking up and crying into my pillow... just overwhelmed with sadness. I didn't know why I was crying or what the dream was about, but when I realized I was crying, I paused, and then started crying again and fell back asleep. It's one of the worst feelings of sadness that I ever feel and it happens every now and then in my sleep. Anyone know what's goin on?



Monday February 13, 2006

I was in some chinese antique furniture store after hours....all the lights were off. I was hopping around and partially flying/gliding in the air at the same time, and there was another person with me doing the same thing. I don't know what we were looking for... but in one of the dark rooms there was this tall/giant chinese man with long black hair, sitting still in a chair. I froze when I saw him...he got up and started walking to the right so I jumped behind a table....

And then some other bad usual dreams with the same two people in them.



Thursday February 16, 2006

I was at some beach running along this sandy hill/road...I couldn't run as fast as I wanted to so I looked at my feet and I was wearing some big old white sneakers...reeboks or something? To the right was the water, cliffs, rocks....tons of people all over the beach and climbing on the rocks...I was excited...

Damnit I can't remember the other dream...

SHOES: Shabby or worn shoes are an omen of success



Friday February 17, 2006

I had a dream that I was using a brown pencil to draw in my eyebrows how I wanted them to be, so that I could show Elmo. After I was done, I looked in the mirror and to come to think of it...I drew a mustache on myself. Actually I had a mini mustache and I drew the ends with the brown pencil. Elmo said, "Let me see," and I said no, I was rolling on the floor trying to hide my face. I said, "My eyebrows kinda look like a mustache okay?" And I kept rolling on the floor...laughing at myself...

I was running away from some people who were chasing me - I was with one of my old coworkers Liz. We ran downstairs in some building, that had a bunch of ladders and pipes there. I found a broom and separated the stick (plastic) from the broomy part, whatever you call it. Then we started running and there were these men who tried to attack us and I started hitting them with the stick and eventually tried stabbing them witih the end of my stick. All of a sudden we were all in a store still fighting, I was jumping on top of counters and aisle thingies....

Then I ended up back at some school, looking for my purse which I had left behind. But couldn't find.

MUSTACHE: If you are a woman and dream that you have a mustache, indicates that you are expressing your power through your words and verbal expression.

FIGHTING: To dream that you participate in a fight, indicates inner turmoil. Some aspect of yourself is in conflict with another aspect of yourself. Perhaps an unresolved or unacknowledged part is fighting for its right to be heard. It may also parallel a fight or struggle that you are going through in your waking life.

BROOM: To see a broom in your dream, denotes that it is time to clean up your act and resolve your past issues. You need to discard what is no longer useful to you. Alternatively, brooms symbolize domesticity and the establishment of a household. Also, brooms are sometimes associated with witches and thus broomsticks may refer to the female shadow aspect of yourself.

PURSE: To dream that you lost your purse, denotes loss of power and control of possessions. It also suggests that you may have lost touch with your real identity.




Wednesday February 22, 2006

I had a dream I was shaving my dogs. And one of them (Changoo) fell asleep on my stomach...

I also dreamt I was arguing with someone about someone.



Thursday February 23, 2006

I guess I was at the dentist because the crown on my tooth had a big ass hole in it, revealing my original small tooth. Weird thing is, I have a crown but it wasn't in the spot it was in my dream. In my dream it was my bottom back last tooth on the right. I remember looking at it in the mirror and it was all deformed and looked like I had a cavity. I was laying in the chair waiting, and they had to rinse my teeth with that water spray thingie...but...the dentist assistant was Mike's mom, and there was a capri sun bag attached to the water thing and she was spraying capri sun on my teeth, telling me not to swallow it.

Then the dentist office turned into some party store that had a bunch of prank stuff in it...I bought my brother a bunch of stuff and then he ended up going back to buy more stuff like fake bugs and all...

DENTIST: To dream that you are at the dentist, signifies periodic doubt over the sincerity and honor of some person. You may have some anxiety or fear of pain, but in the long run it will be for your own good.



Monday February 27, 2006

I was in New York! Well, I didn't see any of the city - I only knew I was in New York because I was at Jenn&Mike's house (3 bedroom, living room on left and kitchen on right when you walk in from the front door). My brother and my cousin Edwin came along with me...I know James and Edwin went out but I fell asleep cause it ended up being 2am, and Jenn&Mike fell asleep too. When I woke up, I was at my cousins house in Santa Clara and I guess I had taken a shower and I was walking around trying to find my bag of clothes and hair stuff...the towel kept shrinking. I found a sheet of sesame street stickers and stuck one on my face. I started walking around the house and I was trying to go back into the bathroom but this one lady was in there with her kids and she wouldn't let me in - she started talking shit, and then my cousin Jeong was at the door and started yelling at her back, saying that I was in there first and I'm a good person...and the lady said, "My nephew is well behaved too." And shut the door. Then I was at Wal-Mart or something, looking at picture frames.

I also remember my dad caught some kind of baby seagull....it was blue and white, with a light blue beak, sitting in a bucket...

Towel
To see or use a towel in your dream, suggests that you need to deal with your emotions in order to move forward in your life. You need to find some sort of a resolution. Alternatively, it represents completion, a fresh start and new transition.

Sticker
To see stickers in your dream, suggests your tendency to hold on and cling to your childhood. Also pay attention to what is depicted on the sticker; that may offer you a clue to what particular aspect of yourself you are not letting go of.

Frame
To see a frame in your dream represents limitations and boundaries. You or someone else may be putting restrictions on you. Alternatively, it symbolizes vanity.

Bird
To see deformed or odd birds in your dream, indicates that you have a unique outlook and perspective on romance and love. The dream may also represent a lack of understanding in affairs of the heart.



Monday March 6, 2006

(From the past few days)

I was at some wedding, possibly a bridesmaid? Wearing a grey/purple dress. Someone was carrying me - and I had needles in my mouth. More and more needles kept filling my mouth until I couldn't even close my mouth anymore - I was panicking, trying to look for a place I could spit it all out.

I was in a hospital - and pregnant. I was in a room with TV show Roseanne - and two other pregnant ladies. The doctor started helping the other two pregnant ladies - but refused to help me because "You didn't get prenatal care, and you didn't get insurance." So he gave the other two ladies some shot/medicine to lessen the labor pain - but he didn't give me anything. Somehow I ended up driving a jeep, four-weeling or something - while still pregnant and waiting for contractions or something.

Heck no.

Needle A needle is symbolic of emotional or physical pain.

Pregnant To dream that you are pregnant, symbolizes an aspect of yourself or some aspect of your personal life that is growing and developing. You may not be ready to talk about it or act on it. This may also represent the birth of a new idea, direction, project or goal.



Thursday March 9, 2006

I was wearing some white sweat pants and I was running - it got caught on something and made a big rip/hole.

The color white usually represents sadness when in a dream. Maybe the rip represents what I feel inside: torn.



Tuesday March 14, 2006

I was talking to that little white girl from Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants - the one that was sick - she was telling me that she was marrying some older famous korean guy from korea. She was telling me how they had never met - only met online and that they talked on the phone and he told her that she was cute...she kept giggling..and I was like .

I was at some amusement park? Like Great America but not...there was this one cool rollercoaster where in real life something like that wouldn't hold up but in my dreams it looked crazy scary cool.

And other dreams.



Monday March 20, 2006

I had a dream that my fishies tried to kill each other. I have Poseidon and Triton's tank next to each other on the table thingie next to my bed - and in the dream I was looking at Triton's tank and saw that his whole back tail/fin had fallen off. I looked inside, and Poseidon and Nereus were both in that tank, all of them fighting. I guess they jumped out of their tanks into each others. I got a net thingie and pulled Poseidon out and put him back in his tank - he turned white but still alive, water was turning pink from blood? Then I pulled Nereus out but he was already dead so I flushed him down the toilet, along with a clown fish that was in his tank that was also dead. Don't know where the clownfish came from. Triton was okay except he was bleeding in his tank and fins all gone.



Wednesday March 22, 2006

At first I was hiding, then I was viciously chasing and attacking someone in Walmart with a metal rake/hoe.



Thursday March 23, 2006

I had a dream I was running around some building with just a white towel wrapped around me. Kept falling. Then the towel kept shrinking so I was trying to cover myself and then my breasts started to grow so I started having even more trouble covering myself. I remember people laughing at me...

Naked: If the nakedness was your own, you can expect a stroke of money luck or an improvement in circumstances.



Monday April 3, 2006

I was at some place near the water - it was supposed to be Monterey but it didn't look like it. I was with Virma, Maryanne and other folks I went to high school with. All of a sudden, people along the pier started screaming and running towards us - they said the water was rising (tsunami). All of a sudden I see dark water rushing up towards the pier and land...I started running - and jumped onto a building. I started hopping rooftops, until I reached home in a panic - screaming at my brother to get all three of our dogs. I didn't care about anything else, just wanted to get my doggies out of the house and safe...

Tsunami
To see a tsunami in your dream, represents that you are being overwhelmed by some repressed feelings or unconscious material that is rising up to the surface. You are experiencing some unhappiness and emotional instability in some waking situation. (no shit)

Roof
To see a roof in your dream, symbolizes a barrier between two states of consciousness. It represents a protection of your consciousness, mentality, and beliefs. It is an overview of how you see yourself and who you think you are. To dream that you are on a roof, symbolizes boundless success.



Wednesday April 5, 2006

I was going up some elevator with a filipina lady and her 6 year old daughter. The lady was a nurse, dressed in scrub clothes. We went into a room that was a hotel room but furnished with regular bedroom/home furnishings. I asked her if it was an apartment, and she said no, she lives in a motel. There was no kitchen. I wanted to take a shower, so I walk to the oval tub in the bathroom and it's filled with water and at first there were orange worms in the water on the bottom - but when I looked closer, they turned into cigarettes. I started to drain the tub and throw the cigs out the window. All of a sudden the drain was clogged with olives. Probably 50 of them. I got even more pissed. Some guy appeared and tried to lazily help me take the olives out the drain, but I yelled at him saying he was incompetent and that the tub was that way because of him. My cell rings, I answer and it's Moses. Except he only accidentally dialed my number and I was listening to him having a conversation with someone who was sitting next to him. I forgot what they talked about. So I give him a call back, and he asked me if I could pick him up from Stockton and take him home to Sunnyvale cause he didn't have his car. I said I didn't have my car either. All of a sudden, I was inside another house, with Moses and Elmo's parents. Then we all walked out of the house, and got into some van....and I don't remember what happened after that.



Monday April 17, 2006

(From the other night): I dreamed that I was in the bathroom. When I was done, I walked out of the bathroom and my brother pointed to my thighs, asking me, "What is that? You're leaking," and I saw blood dripping down my legs. I sat back on the toilet, and out dropped a little dead fetus, the size of a large lemon. That has to be...one of the worst dreams I've ever had.

(Not a dream): Last night, I woke up at 4am to go to the bathroom. Then I went back to bed, with the tv on because I was scared for some reason (I guess from another nightmare that I forgot, thankfully). I woke up hearing a constant beeping noise...so I look at the tv and just see black with some white on the screen. Keeps beeping...so I put on my glasses to see what's going on. The screen was black and then there was a little white square in the middle of the screen. Beep. Then I saw four #4's on the screen. Beep. White square, beep. Four #4's, beep. I know that the number 4 is not a good number - it's a bad luck number and even signifies death. I grabbed the remote and changed the channel to 55, the disney channel and winnie the pooh was on. And went back to sleep...I had dreams but I can't remember them. Now I'm wondering, what the hell was going on in my room, on the tv...

Miscarriage: To dream that you have a miscarriage, signifies that some idea or plan has not followed through or has gone awry. The dream may also serve as a warning against your continued course of action. You should alter your path or may risk losing something of significance and value to you. Alternatively, the dream may indicate that you have been wronged in some way.

***If anyone can explain the beeping/black screen/white square/4's, then please let me know so I don't freak out anymore. Otherwise...

I'm going crazy...




Tuesday April 18, 2006

I was at my aunt/uncles house in santa clara (the one I always dream about). I guess I was spending the night. I was trying to find toothpaste to brush my teeth, and found some tube that had clear blue/clear paste but it had some brown stuff in it. I asked my cousin Younga if it was okay, and she said yeah, it was normal. So I put some on my toothbrush only it comes out the size of a golfball. I tell myself "Oh well," and stick the brush in my mouth and start trying to brush my teeth. Meanwhile, my nephew Tyler comes into the bathroom and needs to go pee so he pees in the bathtub. He runs out the bathroom, and I start to gag on the ball of toothpaste that's halfway down my throat.

I walk into my cousins old room to find something to change into. My aunt/uncle/cousins disappeared, and all of a sudden Tranq and his family were living in the house. Tranq and his lady were arguing. I found a grey t-shirt to wear to bed. There were white sheets on the floor - I slept on the floor instead of the bed. I remember looking to the left and there were a dozen chocolate roses in a big Bath & Body Works shopping bag. Tranq came in to talk to me for a few minutes, and showed me his new daughter.

Then I'm in some hotel room. My mom is with me, this time she is brushing her teeth and speaking perfect english at the same time. I'm laying on the bed watching tv, and my mom is fiddling with the window blinds. I look outside the window, and see some kind of rap contest going on. This chubby asian girl wearing a pink jacket was trying to rap. 5 minutes later she came back dressed as a different person to rap again, but I knew it was her. I leave the hotel and get into a car/truck. It was dark outside - there was a lady pushing a stroller and walking with her son. They were walking on a dirt path, and on both sides of the path were tall bushes. I'm walking behind her, and she tells me there's monsters everywhere. The truck that I was driving was following me, headlights on to show the path. We pass this 8 foot morphed shrek looking guy pushing a stroller. He breathed hard, looked at the lady, looked at me, and kept walking. Then we turned a corner...



Tuesday April 25, 2006

I walked into some concrete doors/building with Jay Leno and George Clooney. There was a 3rd person there too but I don't remember who it was. We walked in, and to the right was this real indoor beach. Sand, clear water, and seaweed here and there. All three of the guys jumped into the water and started swimming and cracking jokes at each other. To the left of me, were these glass walls/windows. But on there was nothing but rocks up against the windows. I realized that this building was built inisde a mountain - and I remember asking Clooney, "What was the point of having glass windows then?" But he didn't know.

I tried killing this orange moth the size of my hand. It flew away but as it started to fly away it told me that I needed to kill his two wives or else they'd kill me. I look down to the grass at the right of me, and I see two yellow moths huddled together - both also huge. I get a big hardcover book, put it on top of them and step on it.

Beach
To see the beach in your dream, symbolizes the meeting between your two states of mind. The sand is symbolic of the rational and mental processes while the water signifies the irrational, unsteady, and emotional aspects of yourself. It is a place of transition between the physical/material and the spiritual. To dream that you are on the beach and looking out toward the ocean, indicates unknown and major changes that are occurring in your life. Consider the state of the ocean, whether it is calm, pleasant, forbidding, etc.

Mountains
To see mountains in your dream, signifies many major obstacles and challenges that you have to overcome. If you are on top of the mountain, then it signifies that you have achieved and realized your goals. Alternatively, mountains denotes a higher realm of consciousness, knowledge, and spiritual truth.

Moth
To see a moth in your dream, indicates that unseen irritations and damage will not surface until it is too late. It is important to pay attention to minor details and not overlook things or others. Alternatively, the moth may symbolize your weaknesses and character flaws.

Yellow
If the dream is an unpleasant one, then the color represents cowardice and sickness. You may have a fear or an inability to make a decision or take action. As a result, you are experiencing many setbacks.



Monday May 8, 2006

I was in some classroom? Nick walked in. My cell phone rang, and I answered it. It was my mom and she told me that Nick was looking for me and that he was going to show up - I said I know, he's right behind me. She said she just wanted to warn me. Then...Nick talked to me. I don't remember much, but we were walking around the school? I remember a swimming pool. I remember him taking me to his parents house, I saw his mom again. Nick wanted me to get back with him, but I said I was seeing someone else, Elmo. Then, I told him that Elmo's mom and his mom were sisters - I remember saying "Auntie Riz." The look on Nick's face: crushed?



Wednesday May 10, 2006

I dreamed that we were moving out of our house - we didn't really have a choice but I don't know why. I remember a realtor lady there (caucasian, straight short orange hair). I just kept crying, and telling my brother we're never supposed to move out of this house because it's the house we grew up in. I started having childhood memories, and crying more.

Crying
To dream that you are crying, signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and a way to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In our daily lives, we tend to ignore, deny, or repress our feelings. But in our dream state, our defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of such emotions.

Moving
To dream that you are moving away, signifies your desire or need for change. It may also mean an end to a situation or relationship and you are moving on. Alternatively, it indicates your determination and issues regarding dependence/independence.



Sunday May 21, 2006

I was in the backyard with my mom - she took me out back to show me this cherry tree at the side of our house. It was huge..and pink blossom petals all over - on the tree and floating in the air. There was a head of a bull at the top of the tree, but its face was also covered with pink petals. She pointed near the fence and there was also a fake tree with pink paper blossoms (5 inch diameter)...

Pink
Pink represents love, joy, sweetness, happiness, affection, kindness. Being in love or healing through love is also implied with this color

Cherry
To see a cherry tree in your dream, represents luck, spring, femininity, and youth

Bull
To see a bull in your dream, symbolizes stubbornness, strong will, strength, and power. It is time to take some action and be more assertive. Alternatively, it indicates rich, prosperous, and abundant life. Consider the pun, "being bull-headed". May you need to have a little compromise in a situation



Wednesday May 24, 2006

I had a dream, that I arrived in New York....I was off the plane and dragging my carry-on stroller thing. I went to some gate, and there was Jenn! Then we were at some counter and while I was checking in somewhere, the worker/lady gave me $350 for some reason. I had the hardest time trying to re-count that money. Then I started walking with Jenn. Another guy was with her - some vietnamese guy? But he was mute. So we were walking then I started stressing out because I forgot to bring my bag - then I realized I forgot my glasses and contact lens case and just about everything else. I also forgot to bring her lychee tea. We went into some huge elevator, going up... and then all of a sudden it was an open elevator thing (no walls or ceiling) and we were at some apartments (painted brownish/tan/orange on the outside)...Jenn was down about something, and I asked her if it was a bad time for me to be visiting her .

See Jenn, how worried/scared I am! But I'll be seeing you very soon! If nothing happens to me at the airport



Wednesday June 28, 2006

I had a dream that I was eating a tootsie roll and it got stuck on my crown. I was trying to detach the candy from my tooth/crown but it hurt and when I pulled on the candy I could feel my tooth moving. Yuck. I also dreamed I was brushing my teeth but all the bristles kept falling out of my toothbrush and getting stuck inbetween my teeth.

I also dreamed that I went to some beach...that had a huge arcade on it.

Loose Teeth: Loose teeth are a warning of untrustworthy friends (how many more of those am I going to have to go through?)

Brushing Teeth: Indicates the clearance of obstacles that have been holding you back, unless one or more bristles got stuck between your teeth, in which case you will still overcome the obstacles, but only after continued patient effort



Friday August 18, 2006

Haven't been having too many dreams lately but this one won't get out of my head. Last night, I dreamt that I was at some lake...I'm thinking it was supposed to be Clear Lake at my cousins house but it looked totally different. I was standing on a weird deck looking down at the water and how green it was. But when I glanced down again, the water became clear and I could see the sand and plants on the bottom. Then this goldfish (one of those round orange and white ones) - rose out of the water. It was bigger than my car. The eyeball (size of a basketball) was all black. It was in midair and just staring at me...

Then I looked down in the water again. I was sitting on a sofa on the deck. I saw a bunch of huge koi fish swimming around...and this all black koi rose up out of the water and sat on my shoulder and was flapping around, trying to eat my ear. All I can say is, gross.

Then I was standing on some small boat and my cousin Woo was standing on a similar boat next to mine. I'm standing there and I see a sleeping bag float by, with a sleeping dog on top of it. I asked Woo if I should wake up the dog cause I didn't want him to drown or fall into the water? Woo said sure, so I grabbed a stick and started poking the dog. It woke up, and jumped into my boat.

Goldfish
To see a goldfish in your dream, foretells of wealth and many successful and pleasant adventures.

Fish
To see fish swimming in your dream, signifies insights from your unconscious mind. Thus to catch a fish, represents insights which have been brought to the surface. The fish is also an ancient symbol of Christianity and Christian beliefs. Consider also the common phrases "like a cold fish", "fish out of water" or something that is "fishy" about a situation. It may also imply a slippery or elusive situation.

Boat
To dream that you are on a boat, denotes fruitful endeavors and that your plans will go off without a hitch. Luck will be right beside you.

Dog
To see a dog in your dream, indicate a skill that you have ignored or forgotten, but needs to be activated. Alternatively, dogs may symbolize intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. Your own values and intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and succeed.