Dreams 2004

Saturday January 3, 2004

Couple of short dreams...

I was supposed to meet my cousin Ji Young so we could go shopping together - I told her I'd be right over but somehow I got there late - and I guess I had a new car - a Toyota Matrix, that I had to pick up because it was left in the parking lot at Hangook Market (Korean Supermarket on El Camino). So I was driving my Honda Accord - and stopped by Costco (again) to get some popsicles. Finally somehow eventually got to my Matrix - transferred all my stuff from my Honda into the Matrix - and left my accord there and drove off in the other car - I was driving stick shift...

I was babysitting my nephew Tyler - later my cousins came home and I needed a new shirt so I grabbed one out of their dresser and it was some light blue shirt with print on it - my cousin Jenny started laughing at me because she said it was Paul's shirt - I said it's ok....

Anyways, HAPPY NEW YEARS. Hope this one is better than the last.



Thursday January 8, 2004

In my dream it was Christmas-time again... I was in some room with my co-workers and we were wrapping gifts for our broker. My broker asked me if I was mad because everyone else was getting paid to help wrap presents, except for me....I said no it's alright...

I guess we were having a bbq in my backyard with all my relatives - the wind started blowing and then my relatives were all "Opossums!" and everybody hopped to peek over the fence - so I did too...then one end from my neighbors backyard we watch these opossums start scurrying across the grass, then all of a sudden these giant geese/duck came out and started eating the opossums like savages (which I actually didn't see with my own eyes), but it was happening...



Friday January 9, 2004

I was in some building looking out the window - saw a small jacuzzi and there was a dead black bird in it, floating on it's back... then when I looked again, it wasn't there anymore but there was another HUGE (looked like 80 pounds) bird floating on it's back, it wasn't dead but it looked like it was dying. At the end of it's wings, there were claws (almost like crab claws) - the right claw was smashed, so I guess that's why the bird was dying/suffering....maybe that represents me - suffering and dysfunctional yet still alive...



Tuesday January 20, 2004

Had a dream where one of my back teeth fell out - and I was spitting out blood into the sink - the blood wouldn't stop, it was pouring out like how water comes out of the faucet...

TEETH: "If they fell out or you spit them out, it is a sign of a season of financial reverses."

That's GREAT because my job interview is today....and I have NO MONEY. Wish me luck.



Friday January 23, 2004

I was in some weird candy store that was next to a coffee shop. I was sitting with some old high school buddies at the coffee shop - Eric N., Michelle T., and Joseph N. .... I remember leaving the table to walk around the candy store to find candy for my brother. That's all. I wonder why I'm dreaming about people from high school all of a sudden.



Friday January 23, 2004

I don't know where I was, I just remember blue trolley tracks criss-crossing each other, and small blue trollies with tons of people in them whizzing by. Weather was cloudy.



Sunday February 1, 2004

I was in the shopping area next to my house where Savemart and Kinko's is - except instead of Kinko's, it was Walgreens in my dream - (and that's where Walgreens was a few years ago before Kinko's took that spot). Anyways, I was walking in front of Savemart when this old skinny bum in a red hooded sweater started yelling profanities at me, cursing at me, spitting on the ground. I was in shock - but then Mike C. came out of Savemart, saw the guy, dropped his stuff and started chasing after the bum, telling him to leave me alone and that he better shut the fuck up and stay his ass away from me. (Yes, Mike C. actually works at Savemart - I know him from high school). Anyways, after the bum ran off - Mike came back to me and asked me if I was alrite, and I said yeah....I asked him if he could walk with me cuz I was scared of the bum, also I had to find where I parked my car. The parking lot looked kinda weird....but I was looking for my car - the white integra. (I don't actually drive a white integra). So we were walkin all over the place, went behind where Walgreens was and there was a neighborhood and sure enough, there was "my" integra parallel parked with its left tires on the sidewalk and right tires on the street. I said "Oh, I remember now, that's where Kimmie parked it." The weird thing is, that memory I had of Kimmie parking the white integra was actually from a previous dream from a long time ago. It's like my dreams continue from different days, even months.. anyawys, I got into the car with Mike. It was stick-shift. (I don't know how to drive stick shift in real life). We were about to get out of the Savemart/Walgreens parking lot but there was a huge metal fence blocking the driveway. I remember seeing a big white dog behind the fence, kind of standing up and looking at us. I drove around the fence, then got home in like 2 seconds (that's actually how close I am to Savemart, just literally right around the corner). I stopped in the street, then the pothead asian guy from that movie "SCORE" or whatever its called (the one about SAT's) came up to the window and told Mike "Oh so you be driving around with asian girls huh?" And Mike got out of the car - I told him thanks, gave him a hug and then was about to go home and then I said "Oh yeah, I have to drive you back to work now huh" and he laughed and said yes and so he got back in my car and I dropped him off at Savemart.....



Sunday February 8, 2004

I was in some weird drugstore - looked like Walgreens except the tile floor was grayish-blue and the counters and registers were dark blue. I was waiting in line to check out - then I saw this scary man behind the counter sitting there. Wearing a dirty dark blue jumpsuit, curly brown hair, I think he had either a beard or mustache - light colored eyes....really dirty looking. People waiting in line were whispering "what is he doing here??" Then all of a sudden he got up, then started walking towards the back where there were some dark blue doors.... and he walked into one. Came out, then walked into the next one....ends up, the doors he was walking into were people's dreams and HE was the nightmare. He would walk into people's dreams through these doors and he himself was the nightmare of those people's dreams....

The nightmare of my own dream was the man himself too....I hope he doesn't come back. Tell me if you see him in your dreams.



Facts about me and my dreams:

1. I can breathe underwater

2. I can fly (only when I know I'm in a dream)

3. I dream in vivid color

4. Some of my dreams come true - mostly premonition type of stuff. i.e. after one dream I woke up and knew my cousin was going to have her baby that day even though he was due one week later. After I woke up, I told some people and they thought I was bullshitting.... later that same night, sure enough, Tyler was born.

5. I dream from first person view, or third person. It's a trip watching yourself.

6. Sometimes I know I'm dreaming because I'll pinch myself and won't feel anything - and when I know I'm dreaming, I can make whoever I want to appear right in front of me and I can do whatever I want to them.

7. When I'm half asleep and half awake and partially dreaming - I'm floating up above my bed. Is it scary? Fuck yeah. It happens.

8. I've had blades and knives thrown at me and I don't feel a thing.

9. When I'm trying to run from someone in my dreams (like bad guys chasing me), it's like I'm running in a swimming pool or something cuz my feet and legs just won't move fast.

10. I have a lot of those dreams where I'm walking around in public with just my underwear and bra on - yet it doesn't phase me in my dreams, I just keep goin along till it switchs to the next dream

More to come next time....



Wednesday February 11, 2004

Had a dream where I was eating a large pizza with Eileen. It was the most colorful pizza I ever saw... Every two slices were different. 2 slices were hawaiin and had bright pineapples on them. 2 slices were pepperoni. 2 slices had skinny onion rings on them, 2 slices were combination....and so on.... There were pineapple chunks on the floor next to the pizza box and I just remember Eileen picking them up and throwing them back on the pizza....that's all I remember..



Saturday February 14, 2004

I was in a car with some small asian guy....I was about to cry, because he was an ass and I was scared of him. He threatened to kill me or something - I was driving, and we ran out of gas so we stopped by the Arco by my house and I had to put gas in the car. I got out the car and went to the gas attendant to pay - it ended up being J. Leandado from high school and I was crying, telling him to please help me that the guy in the car was threatening to kill me. J. got mad, he went out to the car and started yelling at the guy - and all of a sudden the guy morphed into the guy from American Idol ("she bangs") and was all nerdy and scared....

Then all of a sudden I was holding a bag of stuff that my mom bought, with a receipt - there was a loofah thing in there that was 4 bucks, but on the receipt they charged 40 bucks - so I went back to the store, which was right next to the gas station- the guy working at the store, was another guy from high school - R. Cuento. I guess he owned the store, so he gave me a full refund of everything back and I got to keep everything too.. something else weird happened too but I don't remember.



Saturday April 3, 2004

Finally had a dream I remember. I was in my room looking through my closet trying to find something to wear because I was getting married, and I was late. No wedding dress. I kept trying to put together ugly white clothes but coudln't find anything. Finally last minute I just decided to wear a summer dress....it was a magenta/pink summer dress, and I put a magenta flower behind my ear. I remember thinknig about my dad and mom and how surprised I was that they were all cool with me getting married basically out of nowhere. My friend Rob drove me to wherever I was getting married. Looked like a townhouse complex... anyway, I walked in somewhere...and there were people sitting around fancy dining tables....I walked in and all eyes were on me. The guy I was supposed to marry - grabbed me by the hand. Strange thing, I couldn't see his face...I'm not sure who it was, but he just led me by the hand and I was following him. I had this inner happiness in me - I've never felt that content and in love before... then all of a sudden, I walked into this other room by myself- and a lot of people had left beause they were waiting too long. I guess I was a few hours late...and I remember just standing there alone....he was gone....



Sunday April 11, 2004

I don't know where I was - I just remember being outdoors and there were big white buildings around. I was hanging out with * and we were just walking around trying to find somewhere warm to kick it cuz it was damn cold outside. He said he knew of this one place we could go to - that it was closed but they always leave that room open. He held me by the hand and then led me into this place that looked like a house but not really. We snuck past the living room area and then he opened this one door and said "See?" and let me walk in first. We were laying down on top of these blankets just talking, and I was eating saltine crackers. He leaned over to kiss me and I kept shaking my head no because I still had crackers in my mouth, and in my head I was saying "Shit, I got fuckin crackers in my teeth and mouth".....but he kissed me anyway. And that's all I remember.



Monday April 12, 2004

I was on some sort of raft/boat in the ocean with my brother James (HAPPY BIG 20th BIRTHDAY BRO!) except he was like 8 years old again. I was drinking Gatorade out of a Squueze-It bottle (remember Squueze-its anybody?) and eating chips...All of a sudden I notice that we drifted too far and we were near those ropes with the buoys. I told James to run the raft boat back towards shore and he did, except the boat went so fast that it dropped us in the water and went off by itself somewhere else. I swam to my brother and he was crying because his goggles were floating far away. So, I turned around and swam to get them - I guess I swam so good and so fast that I was nearly out of the water with my ass sticking up in the air. I got the goggles, swam back and gave them back to James.

My dreams are coming back to me! Finally.



Saturday April 24, 2004

I had a dream that I was in Santa Clara somewhere, it was at night and I was riding a bicycle in some neighborhood. I was trying to go home but - there were mountains of trash in the neighborhood streets, and these mounds of trash were higher than the houses. I looked again, and the trash was on fire....and I couldn't get home...I remember thinking that I had to find an alternative route home. I think this dream means - I've had a lot of trash and garbage that's gotten in my way in life, but it's all burning away and soon I can find my way back to where I should be. Hence "let it burn."

I don't know where I was this time but I remember someone telling me to look @ my room - so I went behind this corner and saw my room. It had no 4th wall, and It was an L-shaped room. I know it was my room because it had everything my room has now. But on one side of the room, my guinea pig's cage was there. there was newspaper all over the floor with guinea pig shit and wood shavings all over the place. Which reminds me, does anyone know anyone who would like a cute FAT and WHITE guinea pig, that would take good care of her?

I also remember being with some guy...we were hiding....I don't know where or what we were doing or what happened - I just remember I had that "feeling" again, like in that other dream where the guy who kissed me when I had crackers in my mouth. Except it wasn't the same guy this time - it was someone else but I don't know who. No face...hmmm.

My dad always told me when you dream of fire, it means you'll have luck in winning the lotto. Either that or it's just plain good luck. So, I'm going to 7-eleven today to get some quick picks. Then I can buy my viper and drive away from all you fools. JK. I love you.



Saturday May 1, 2004

I had a dream the night before that I was walkin around my neighborhood - walking back to my house. And then 2 motorcycles pulled up. One was yellow and black and the other was green and black. The yellow and black motorcycle pulled up towards me and the guy got off his bike and took off his helmet....it was Rommel. He got me, then he got on the bike again and I jumped in the back and we were supposed to go to Hayward or something. And it's funny I dreamed of him because I ran into him @ Denny's last nite! But he wasn't on a motorcyle and I know he don't own one. I got home at 430am, woke up at 730am....no time for dreams last nite. To be continued. Happy birthday Edgar. I'm sure you had some sweet dreams last nite when you were knocked out and had people writing all over you with markers and putting ranch on your hands and face and stripping u in nothing but your boxers.



Tuesday May 4, 2004

So I had a dream that I was going camping with Shierwin, Brian and Kimmie. I just remember, we pulled over in some parking lot and Shierwin got out (he was driving my car) to put something in the trunk - but instead he slid it under the car and drove away. So me and Kimmie were standing there looking at the thing on the floor, wondering what was the point of him sliding that under the car instead of putting it in the trunk. When Shierwin drove away, the car turned black. (My car is white).

Next thing I know, I'm driving Brian's 350Z....I was following Shierwin around some mountains...we were speeding, and all of a sudden he disappeared, and so did the road....I was in the air...and I look down, and I'm like "where the fuck is the road???" and then I remember seeing nothing but trees....and the car started to slowly fall into the forest of trees.....



Wednesday May 5, 2004

Tuesday morning, I was supposed to wake up at 6am so I could shower and straighten my hair cuz I didn't have time to do it Monday night. Brian was to call me at 630 to make sure I was up. So I go to bed, and wake up at 645. I didn't hear my alarm, and there was a missed call from Brian. SO I called Brian back to say sorry and thank you. Then I went back to sleep, and I dreamt that he was at my house and my mom was screaming at me telling me to tell him to go home. Haha. Then I remember trying to hide him or something and all these little red crabs starting come out of everywhere. Then, I went to school with Brian but he disappeared and I was wearing Emo's blue jacket. I went on top of some building, and met some guy - I don't remember who it was supposed to be.....maybe my new boyfriend. Haha....



Friday May 21, 2004

Had some funky dreams last nite - Eery. It was dark, walking along some dirt road. To my right, there was a big 2-story barn that was gray. On the left side, there was this huge cemetary...saw a whole bunch of graves...sky was dark, dark grey clouds...I was with other people but I don't remember who......



Saturday June 19, 2004

I had such a beautiful dream - that words really cannot describe. I was floating around some mountains/hills - lush green, lots of trees. I remember looking down and it was like a valley area with a huge lake with dark blue water.....more like a stream as wide as a lake.....There was a fisherman fishing, standing on top of these round stones and talking to his Marlins. All of a sudden my view changed and I was looking at him as if I were looking at him from his feet (maybe I was a bug flying around?).... I looked up and he pulled in his line- and caught one of his marlins (they didnt look like regular marlins - they had wide bodies and were a dark bluish-black color - about 10 feet long by 5 ft....I remember seeing the marlin fly/jump over the fisherman's head and while the marlin was in the air, the fisherman unhooked the line from the marlins side (where there was a metal thing on it, where the hook was hooked) but as the fisherman took the hook off, the hook accidentally scratched the marlin's hind fin and I remember hearing the marlin cry....and the look of pain on the fisherman's face....



Thursday August 12, 2004

I had a dream I got into a car accident - someone rear ended me and mashed the left side of my bumper. I guess I re-lived my accident from the LA trip, except worse.



Wednesday October 20, 2004

All of a sudden I was ankle deep in water - in Hawaii! I look to my left and there's my brother, and he's raving about how clear the water is... the sand was ivory, there was one palm tree near me... and the water was crystal clear. I started going into the water more, and then I realized my cell fone was in my pocket. So I took it out and raised it in the air and told my brother my cell phone was wet...then some chubby lady comes out of nowhere to the left and is asking everyone for their cell phones or to put them on shore... next thing I know, I forgot where I was but I was reading email and I got email from what's his face, telling me he was in Hawaii too, not really having fun, and told me he was dropping his classes, and then I remember reading "Mrs Chang Chang Chang Chang Chang" in his email...



Thursday November 11, 2004

Last night: I had a dream from a bug's point of view. As a bug, I was flying over a big glacier somewhere. There was a white guy with long wavy blonde hair on a small raft boat trying to row on the ice. He kept banging his paddle on the ice/glacier. Next thing, the glacier starts to crack right underneath his measly raft boat (just like in that movie Day After Tomorrow) and then I saw him fall into the crack, disappearing and falling into the water. Then a minute later he climbs back up the glacier cussing. His blue/gray wool scarf was frozen. He climbed up onto a piece of ice and fell asleep.

Dream from a couple weeks ago: I bought a pair of Nine West shoes and brought them home. Looked at them, and tried them on. They said "LG" all over them. My right shoe fit, the left one didn't because it was too small. So, I looked at the bottom of the shoes for what size they were and it said "7 1/4"

Another dream: Was grocery shopping with Elmo at some supermarket and we were in the frozen food section. There was a whole mess of candy bags in the frozen section too. Green cart. That's all I remember.



Saturday December 4, 2004

I was with a group of friends, singing together - getting ready for some singing contest in LA. We were all at my cousins house in Santa Clara - we all packed into the car and I realized my boots weren't matching what I was wearing. I had on a black sweater, khakis and brown boots - I wanted my black boots. So I got out of the car and walked into the garage to find my boots - I found them, tried putting them on but they were too small and dirty and ugly for some reason. So I said forget it, put back on my black boots and walked back to the car to find out that it was packed and I couldn't fit in - they told me they were leaving for LA. My aunt said she'd drive me to LA, so I said ok and followed her into the bathroom. She sat in the bathtub and I sat behind her, knowing that the bathtub was a car for some reason. She started the engine, then pushed a button and one side of the wall opened up to the garage. Then she drove the bathtub right out...we went out of the bathroom out of the garage, down the driveway and turned the street and the bathtub died. I saw it from 3rd person view - it was a bathtub sitting on a huge flat piece of wood with 4 wheels, looked janky. I saw my dad's old nissan stationwagon parked on the street but it wasn't driveable... Symbolism? I'm getting nowhere in life.



Saturday December 4, 2004

I was in Monterey Bay Aquarium with a whole bunch of old high school folks .. walking around looking at fish..then all of a sudden the aquarium inside, filled up with water and people were in scuba diving gear swimming around inside the aquarium looking at fish... later I was in line at some concession stand, and this teenager walks by and pushes me on purpose, making me run into the girl standing in line in front of me - so I yell, "Ay what the fuck, come back here.." so he turns around, smirking...I was sitting there arguing with him telling him to apologize..somehow ended up in a fist fight.



Wednesday December 15, 2004

I had a DREAM I was swimming somewhere in SF Bay with Kimmie and 2 other people with no faces. The mountains/hills were black, and the sky was purple/blue/pink. I told everyone lets go back to shore..and they said okay, except Kimmie said she was going to swim to Alcatraz, which we could see in the distance but looked like a black island... I tried to get her to swim back to shore but she turns around and starts swimming like a pro, and I'm following her - Only I'm like a bug flying in the air following her while she's swimming - but she made it!



Wednesday December 15, 2004

Another dream... X gave me a call to go over to some house/house party...so I pull up to this mansion, park on the street (it was night). Then I walk up to the garage and it ends up being this huge automatic garage - looked like some industrial building garage. While it opened I saw my friend opening it with the rope cause the automatic thing was broken. I walked in, past the living room, and saw X sitting/laying on a chair, hiding from me, under a plant, with his eyes closed. Hmm. So I said anyways, and kept walking and walked into the family room and greeted a whole bunch of people that I knew from high school. I sat on the floor in front of a short table to watch TV...I felt something from behind me so I turned around to see X, this other girl I knew from high school with her bf, sitting on the sofa...then she started tickling and flirting with X. The whole time, X was making eye contact with me, wouldn't take his eyes off me...but smiling and flirting back with that girl at the same time. So, I got up, grabbed my bag and tried to run away but realized my slippers were in the closet so I had to go find them. Found them, tried to run away but I could see him from the corner of my eye trying to chase/follow me. Slow motion running, like I was running in water and couldn't run any faster... but I managed to get to my car and got in and drove off in tears, saw him behind me in my rear view mirror but I just drove off, up into this driveway and then all of a sudden I'm in some casino and I'm some waitress walking up stairs with handsful of cups/trays...and as I'm walking up these stairs, the stairs start to disappear beneath me and I couldn't get back down...