Dreams 2003

Wednesday September 17, 2003

It was 9:53am and I rolled out of bed, blinking my eyes and realizing that the past hour of my life - I was in my dream state. I've been meaning to start a dream journal since I get dreams frequently but was never able to get myself started. But since I got laid off recently - I have all the time in the world (again). And I figure I could entertain everyone with my dream life which would be so much more interesting than writing about my real life, so here I start with my dream from last night:

I was outside a jewelry store that looked more like my neighborhood block. There were 4 or 5 display windows that all had jewelry in them. I was wearing a gold bracelet that had a little charm - a little black/onyx box that was trimmed with gold. I looked at the keylocks on the display windows and realized that my black charm would fit... so I stuck my charm into the first keyhole and then the window unlocked and I was able to slide it open. It wouldn't open all the way - but I was able to stick my fingers in to grab a silver bracelet with a charm on it. So I moved onto the next window, and did the same thing - for all 5 of the windows. So there I was, standing with 5 of the most sparking silver bracelts I've ever seen, in my hand, shining in the sunlight, looking like mercury dripping through my guilty fingers. I tried to shove them in my pocket, but they kept wiggling out like worms. And since it was a dream, with the best of luck, my pockets were hella small. Next thing I knew, this cop flew out of nowhere and put me in a headlock. We both fell to the ground and were just laying there while he was talking into his radio, saying what cops say when they arrest people I guess. He was smiling at me though. Then, this old man with gray frizzy hair comes walking from across the street, and tells the cop that cops are after him. So the cop lets me go and starts running, and the old man walks back across the street. So I get up, dust myself off and am standing there looking at the bracelets. Next thing I know, I'm at my cousins house in Santa Clara, trying to get into one of the bathrooms so I could figure out where to hide them. But the bathrooms were occupied by my least favorite aunts. But I went through the hallway closet and found a tin box to put them in. Then all of a sudden I was on a big ship in the ocean - this time I could actually see myself. I was running around the dock with my life vest on - I was a lot thinner. I looked happy - I was just laughing and running (by myself) and I jumped into the blue-green ocean water. There were people around of course but no one I knew. My last dream image - I was swimming in the water, looking out at the sandy cliffs behind the ship...
*** STEALING IN A DREAM MEANS: A dream of stealing is a warning to be extra cautious in money or investment matters for the next few months, unless you were caught, which is a dream of contrary and signifies good luck.



Thursday September 18, 2003

Didn't really have any long dreams last nite, just remember bits and pieces - the first one I remember is that I was hanging out with my cousins Janie and Max (changed their names)...we were at some strange house. I always have re-occuring dreams about Janie and she's the cousin I hate the most, I guess since I hate her so much, I constantly have dreams about kicking her ass or screaming my head off at her. I don't remember where we were or what we were doing - just inside some empty house and everything looked sea green. There was this one open room (no doors, just a room next to the living room area) and the walls were sea green too, and there were these colorful, plastic palm trees and colorful plastic plants (reminded me of something you'd see in Flintstones). There were lights coming up from the floor, making the room look like some sort of stage, then all of a sudden Shaq appeared out of nowhere and he was wearing a yellow and red genie suit, even had the turban thing on his head. His arms were crossed and he was just staring at the other side of the room, and didn't talk to or look at anybody.

HOUSE: A dream which featured a house being demolished or being in an EMPTY one suggests you are grieving over a recent loss, broken relationship, or missed opportunity; don't despair, time really DOES heal all things. (I guess that has to do with my cousin).

CELEBRITY: To dream of celebrities in formal dress indicates that you are on the verge of a minor personal success, while casually attired stars confirm that a small intimate victory has recently been yours. If the famous people are ignoring you, perhaps you need to reduce your obligations and focus on what's really important to your heart.



Saturday September 20, 2003

I was in some strange place walking around in a black sleeveless top and white capri sweatpants... Later I noticed that there was a big rip/hole on the back near the bottom that came out of nowhere....

HOLE: A hole in a garment forecasts improving luck in financial matters.



Saturday September 27, 2003

The weather was scorching hot - I was at my cousins house again. Sitting in the living room, I started to hose myself off with water because my body was too hot. All of a sudden I'm at some desert - just clear blue sky, sand and ATV's riding around...

HOSE: Changes of an adventurous nature are forecast in a dream of a squirting hose.

DESERT: In bloom, and/or in clear sunny weather, a dream featuring a desert predicts contentment and good success in your efforts.

SAND: Whether the sand you dreamed of was on a beach, in your food, or in your shoes, it is warning you to be wary of a new acquaintance who will try to exploit you. (That's the third sign/symbol in a dream that is indicating someone who's gonna hurt me...)

SKY: A clear sky, whether light or dark, signifies happy times ahead.



Monday September 29, 2003

I was at college...I've never been to this campus before in real life but I have had a dream about this campus previously. Really nice campus, green grass, the sky was blue - a lot of buildings (cream/brown colored). Walking around as if I've been going there...went into the school library - same library I visited in my previous dream. Brand new books...shelves would have small glass or gold/silver ornaments on them you could buy. Last time at this campus I was with my cousin *Jane... now I was by myself this time.

I looked in the mirror in one of the bathrooms - I had bangs! I liked it. (I've been thinking about cutting some bangs on me for the longest time so I finally got to see what I looked like with bangs in my dream). I was wearing a pink shirt.

I was walking to a concert with 2 or 3 other guys, I don't remember who they were at all. We were in the parking garage walking, and see this white car with 4 blonde chicks in it doing donuts in the garage and screaming.

I remember constantly changing clothes -I don't know where I was this time. In my backyard! Okay..it just looked weird. My final outfit was a black sleeveless shirt, a maroon skirt, and a denim jacket.

The last dream I remember is that my hair was all curly/permed... and I told my friend Emo to shave it all off for me. I handed him the clippers... he asked me if I was sure and I said yup. I sat down on a chair in my backyard, bent over so my head was upside down and Emo started shaving from my neck. Then he stopped because he didn't want to anymore. When I checked in the mirror, he had shaved off a strip/patch that was going from left to right (about ear level). I still had hair at the very bottom of my neck but then an inch above that is where Emo shaved the strip of hair off....he told me that way when I tie my hair up, you can't see the shaved part of my head, because the hair at the bottom of my neck would cover the bald strip when I tied my hair up. I wish I could draw a picture to make it easier to visualize. Well. That's all.....

COLLEGE: This dream predicts upcoming petty annoyances.

LIBRARY: A generally fortunate omen but particularly auspicious for those engaged in artistic or creative activities.

HAIRCUT: All details of the dream should be carefully correlated to determine its meaning, but as a general guide: if your hair was luxuriant and you were pleased with its appearance and/or condition, it is a sign of good health, progress, and contentment. To cut your own hair, or have it cut, is a sign of success in a new venture or sphere of activity.

CLOTHES: The act of putting on clothes in a dream signifies success ahead, whereas undressing is a forecast of reverses.



Tuesday September 30, 2003

Family, relatives, all at my house... we were having a family get-together for halloween. I just remember my nephew Tyler wearing a clown suit and he had paint on his face (he was a clown last year for halloween). Then I forgot who, but someone gave him a pumpkin suit to wear - they said it was a 10 pound pumpkin suit. ?? He was wearing green socks, so cute....



Wednesday October 1, 2003

I was at a park with Nick Lachey, his brother and Jessica Simpson. (I'm guessing because I watched Newlyweds last nite on MTV). We were at a park walking around - I ran into my elementary school best friend Emily and her twin sister Jessica. I remember sliding down metal slides (the ones they had before at parks before they started making those bright plastic swingsets that end up shocking everyone). Later, we (Nick, his brother and Jessica) were sitting at some picnic tables eating barbeque - and Nick threw up on my white pants. Later we were at some house watching TV, and Nick's brother gave me a framed picture of himself which was personally autographed to me but signed "Joey." I know that's not his name.

I also had another fast dream where I took my contacts off and put them in their case, only to watch them dry and crystallize.

*Coincidentally after I had these dreams and woke up, I heard Walmart optometry on my home answering machine leaving a message saying that my contact prescription has expired and if I'd like to come in and renew my prescription. Heehee. They expired in May and I've been wearing my last 2-week contact lenses for...over 4 months now. But they're fine!!!



Friday October 3, 2003

I wasn't able to write down my dreams last nite so they're kind of fuzzy to me right now...I just remember being at some beach - typical beach weather (grey sky)..nice ocean breeze, big rocks...there was a huge ship too. I don't remember who I was with, I think it was 2 females. Later I was at some park playing on a indoor swingset with Nick's little cousins...



From October 4, 2003

I was in some weird dark city - kinda like the ones you see in them old movies where the streets have round stones instead of asphalts and there's nothing but bars all around - the ground was wet and the moonlight was reflecting off of everything, making everything look blue. I was trying to find this one Japanese bar, and I walked up to it only to find out that the entrance was closed and I had to enter it through downstairs...so I started walking down these dark steps across the street....kinda like a subway thing...

Some bitch with orange hair and dark ass eyeliner was in my living room, taunting me... making me cry. I forgot what she did but I ran outside and my old neighbors came out (they actually moved out of there like 8-10 years ago), and she was comforting me - telling me that girl who was taunting me always lies... there were cats all over the place (orange striped cats).

MOON: Very bright moonlight is a prophecy of family unity and/or domestic happiness. All moon omens are intensified if they were seen reflected in water.

ORANGE: Orange suggests that an expected change in your situation will be delayed



Sunday October 5, 2003

Geez, I wish I wrote my dreams down last nite because I had so many...but do you know how hard it is to write down dreams in the middle of the night? Only half my fingers are willing to function! Bits and pieces:

Kim Catrall (Is that how you spell it - she's the one from Sex and the City). Well she was operating some black helicopter that looked like it woulda been from Transformers...I was walking around in some area and next thing I know the helicopter drops and she's trying to attack me with the helicopter - it had some kind of strange metal arms that moved around and she was trying to attack me.

I was at some nice beach house - the rooms were very airy and the sunlight shone thru the windows really nice... Nick gave me a gold and onyx engagement ring. It was a men's ring. I don't understand.

HELICOPTER: The sight of a helicopter in the skies is a promising sign of fulfilled ambition. If you find yourself physically threatened by the whirring blades, you desperately need a simple solution to intense personal strife.

RING: If you found a ring or received one as a gift, it predicts a new love interest or an important new friendship.



Wednesday October 8, 2003

Awake at 1:40am, got a lot on my mind....wondering what dreams will visit me tonight. I look forward to sleeping because I look forward to dreaming. I think I dream more than other people - either that, or I just am able to remember mine more often. This dream journal has been helping me out a lot too - helping me remember my dreams, and helping me have more dreams. I visit places I've never been to before....and even if the atmosphere in my dreams are strange, I'm comfortable, like I actually belong there. Some of my dreams are continuous...

Makes me question whether this life I'm living right now is the real thing...What if this is all a dream, and I'm a character in someone elses dream? And that person, dreams about the life I'm living now. Bits and pieces. Or are dreams just all lost memories - I could be living someone elses lost memories through my dreams.

I can't emphasize how much I wish my dream life were real. Cannot emphasize it enough. Why? In my dream life - the people I love are still with me. But in my dreams, they don't hurt me like they do in real life. DREAM LIFE IS SIMPLE. But if someone does hurt me in my dreams - it barely lasts and I'm over it. Nothing like real life, where pain and fear continues. My emotions are a lot clearer in my dreams, a lot less pain and stress...if any at all. I can fly, I can swim under water and breathe, I can be sitting in the corner of my empty room with blades flying out of nowhere, sticking into me - and FEELING NO PAIN (real dream). I can see who I want to see, and I visit places I probably will never see in my lifetime. In my dreams I have control over so many things - like the other night, I was able to control all the stars in the sky.

I wish I could find out the truth about my dreams. I wish I could find out what dreams really are...people say its our subconscious sending us messages or what not, I agree but I believe that there's something much more deeper to it all. I just...can't get a grasp on it. I hope someday I will.

My dreams are always in color. Sometimes I see myself from 3rd person view. But I look kinda different. Most times it's first person view. I never see mirrors in my dreams. Sometimes I know I'm dreaming. One time I had a dream that I was standing on black asphalt....there was NOTHING but black asphalt. And blue sky. It was empty. I knew I was dreaming - this time it was 3rd person view. I was jumping up and down, saying "Wake up! Wake up ALICE!" But I didn't... and since I knew I was dreaming, I was able to fly myself into another dream.

It's a blessing to be able to have these dreams...If I didn't dream as much, I think I'd be totally miserable with the life I'm living now. Too much anger and pain. I come across too many lies. People swear they'd never lie to you - but just cause they tell you they'd never lie to you, doesn't mean they won't. At least at night, I have my dreams to look forward to. It's an escape...it keeps me sane. When I'm dreaming, please don't wake me up...



Thursday October 9, 2003

Had a dream that I was getting ready for Vegas with some of my family and relatives...I was packing my suitcase. My cousin told me that we were staying for only one night - but I packed like 8 shirts/sweaters. Next thing I know, we're in the hotel room already and I'm digging thru my suitcase to find my toothbrush, and I found it, only it was as big as a toothpick.

I also remember finding a whole bunch of tootsie roll candies - the ones that are flavored (vanilla, strawberry, lemon, etc) and I shoved em all in my pocket.

These two dreams I remember are: things I want right now that I can't have - Vegas, and candy.



Monday October 20, 2003

I actually had a dream last nite but I only remember a piece of the dream...I just remember standing on the side of a freeway and while looking down, there was a slope and it led to a beautiful river with round rocks all down the slope. I had to get down to find something, and all of a sudden there was like a sheet of saran wrap from the top of the freeway down to the river - i dont know how wide or long the saran wrap was, it was as large as I could see it in the distance. So I hopped on the saran wrap and slid down over the rocks down to the river. Then me and someone else were digging through the sand, and found this 12 inch by about 16 inch piece of rectangle glass, that had a map sketched onto it (frosted writing, can't really explain) but I remember 2 parallel streets that were on the map: J Street, and 10th Street.



Tuesday October 21, 2003

I was hanging out with my brother somewhere...adn there was this 5 cent vending machine that had neon gummi worms spilling out, so I told him to get some. Since it kept spilling out, I somehow had a styrofoam box (the ones where you get lunches to go @ restaurants), and we filled the whole thing up...then I remember eating them in my backyard.

Another dream, we (men & my relatives) went to go visit my cousin Edwin's apartment...It was nice. Only thing that was weird about it, was that I thought I saw the whole apartment but there was this long ass hallway that had like 5-8 more bedrooms...I remember seeing a bathroom at the end of the hall but I was too scared to walk down the hall since everything was red.



Sunday November 2, 2003

I had a dream that I was squeezing two zits on the back of my hand. Didn't really look like zits - looked more like little yellow earlpugs that were plugged into my skin/hand. So, I squeezed the yellow thing with my left hand. One yellow thing was where my knuckle is for my pointing finger, the other one was on my pointing finger. So, I squeezed and the earplug piece came out (oil I guess)... and there were these huge ass holes that turned hella big. The hole on the back of my hand looked like someone cut a 2 by 3 inch rectangle out of my hand - so, there I was with this big rectangle cut out of my hand - it wasn't bloody but it was red with muscle and veins - my bones were gone, cuz the rectangle was about half an inch deep.. and then I had a mini cut-out rectangle on my pointing finger where the other oil thing was....and I remember going to my mom, telling her to take me to the hospital... gross dream, didn't like it much, still feel weird when I think about it.



Wednesday November 5, 2003

I remember having a pet tiger - it wasn't a baby, but it wasn't full grown either - I was hanging from something with my legs, holding onto the tiger with dear life...and then I dropped it onto the floor (4 feet), and then it started acting crazy - started attacking some people who were standing around. I had a knife with me, so I started lightly slashing it's stripes - and it would calm down each time... it wasn't bleeding or anything.

I was at a graduation ceremony for my brother - they were wearing navy blue gowns - I was sitting somewhere high and it was an indoor ceremony. I remember watching the graduates do some kind of dance - running in circles with their arms and legs flaring out everywhere. Then they started walking up the stairs and the graduates passed near the balcony where I was at, and I saw my brother and was able to say hi to him. He had clean cut short hair - and it was brown. (In reality his hair is loooong and black). Then while I was watching him walk, I saw my parents sitting together and my mom flagged my bro down. She was in her light blue pajamas and I was telling her to sit down, and let him walk....haha....her and my dad were both laughing.

I was in some movie theater, and some Disney movie started playing - looked like Finding Nemo, but it wasn't..I was with a whole bunch of people and we were all sitting in one long aisle (i'd say there were about 30 people in one aisle).

Another dream, I was driving into some parking garage with my mom. Why am I always dreaming about parking garages..am I going to die in one or something. Has to mean something. Anyway, the parking garage was clean and white..outdoor one...and it was nice and sunny outside....

Then another dream - I just ...can't explain it with words....I'll just put the words: hallway, metal chairs, garage...waiting....



Saturday November 15, 2003

Damn, it's about time this shit works.. I been trying to put a new entry in all day and it wouldn't let me, so now I only remember half my dreams.

First dream - I was in a Raiders game. I was a Raiders football player. I don't know what I was doing - this dream was from 3rd person view, so I saw myself on the field, in a uniform, looking hella lost.... After the game I remember my dad telling me that I looked like a dumbass on television cuz they kept showing closeups of my face, since I was the only girl...

Then there was some big gangster latina chick in my room with long spiral permed hair and I was trying to flat iron it but...man, it was hell...

I made sushi (I didn't dream of making it, but in the dream I knew I actually made the sushi). It was supposed to be California rolls, only the rice was green and there was sashimi in it. And the big gangster latina ate a lot of it. It was spoiled. Duh, who would eat green rice.

Another dream...a girl and guy were chasing me and someone else- The girl looked like Katie Holmes, with a green sweater on. I just knew she was trying to hurt/kill/strangle me so I was trying to kill her but morally I couldn't so I just tried poking her eyes out with my fingers. Didn't succeed tho, her eyes were shut too tight.



Wednesday November 19, 2003

Had a dream I was with my cousin Willie - we were riding bikes through some trails and we were trying to get from Dublin to Silver Creek. We got lost at time so we kept looking at maps - but since it was a dream, the maps weren't maps - they were just jibberish, and we were near some dock thing close to water. 50 Cent was sitting on a bench...I forgot what was going on.



Friday November 28, 2003

I had a dream I was at some huge mall - had white marble floors everywhere. There was this one pretzel place where they had some kind of dance cage and they were forcing people to dance. I remember my friend Pumbaa dancing in the cage. They tried to force me to dance in it too, but I ran. I was running around the mall, brushing my teeth....trying to find a bathroom where I could spit out and rinse. Finally I found a bathroom - my old neighbor Juby was there talking to me...

Then, I was sitting at some tables in the mall with JOHNNY DEPP. Fabulous. It was just me and him - its like he was my friend in the dream and we were just talking. But at the same time I was getting an autographed picture from him, about 10 of em, hehe. He was wearing what he was wearing in Once Upon a Time in Mexico.



Tuesday December 9, 2003

I was in the bathroom putting on my contact lenses. I put them on, and then looked at my lens case and there was a contact lens sitting in it...Did I forget to put the other one in? I looked in the mirror, closing each eye to see which one was missing the lens....but both looked fine. First time I saw a mirror in my dream. My reflection really didn't look like me... anyway. I look back into the lens case and there were 2 contact lenses in it now, instead of one..I looked in the mirror again and then looked back into the case and then there were 3. So I woke up, and went to Walmart to make a contact lens appointment. I've been wearing my 2-week contacts since May now...and they're fine. But I guess it's time to get new ones huh.



Sunday December 21, 2003

I had a dream a few nights ago that someone kept telling me I had cancer - it was a female, I forgot who - but she kept repeating it, telling me, and telling other people around.....



Saturday December 27, 2003

The other night, had a dream that i was outside somewhere at some parking lot of some Costco - and there was this billboard with a GIANT YELLOW DUCKLING (about as big as a mobile home) sitting on top of it - me and someone were walking to the car, when we saw the giant yellow duckling eat 2 people who walked by. So me and that someone (I don't remember who) jumped onto a nearby steel/metal fence, hoping the duck didn't see us in the street....

In another dream I was sitting in my bed - and that ugly thing from Lord of the Rings - Smiegel or however you spell it - well he was sitting on my pillow but about 2 pounds only - really small - but bald, ugly, naked, and with glowing blue eyes. I was petting his head and trying to make him go back to sleep because I was scared of him being awake. (In real life if I saw something like him/it, I wouldn't go near it without a gun). Gross.



Saturday December 27, 2003

Many bizarre dreams last night...One, I was in the living room looking out into my backyard and I saw my brother - only he was about 6 or 7 years old in my dream (back when he had the bowl haircut), and he was sitting in mud - he made a 4 ft tall snowman out of caca, and he was throwing mud at it. I kept asking my dad, "isn't the grass ruined now???" or something like that.

In another dream I was with some girl and her boyfriend was trying to kill her - the weird part was I kept switching to her (being her in my dream, then being myself, then being her again) so this dream was kind of confusing....it was at night and we went into some bar - I just remember the counters and chairs were all made of oak and it was kind of dark and eery in there, so we were trying to hide... we went upstairs - and upstairs it was like the inside of a pizza restaurant - we sat with some other people. Then her boyfriend appeared came up the steps, and it ended up being Snoop Dog. Then I switched to the girl again, and I had a tiny silver gun in my hand and shot him....then there was just chaos, people running everywhere, people trying to kill each other....I think...or just Snoop Dog trying to kill me/the girl......



Monday December 29, 2003

Nightmare last nite. I was at my cousins house in Santa Clara - and I guess me and my cousin had registered online for some class somewhere - and then I got a letter in the mail saying that I was enrolled in haunted school and that I had to go or else I'd die - goes for everyone who registered for this one class. I was sitting there and even saw a commercial for it on TV - it was kind of like a preview....?? Anyway, I was scared shitless but didn't wanna die so I got ready to go to school. I went to my car, and my (crackhead) cousin was sitting in the passengers seat - she looked different tho. In real life the last time I saw her, she was short and stout...in my dream, she was wearing lavendar sweats, and she looked like she was 6 ft tall and 100 pounds - her hair was long and her face was long too - and she was sitting in my car shaking...I always dream about her (I just choose not to log down these dreams of her usually cuz..problems). My other older cousin Laurie said she'd go with us, and sat in the back...so I was driving - it was sunny outside....we parked somewhere, and there were these long steps up to where we were going, except the steps were covered with green and purple grapes (grapes that were as big as oranges) - and Jamie Lee Curtis was sitting near the bottom, and said we couldn't pass or walk up the steps - I ignored her anyway, stepped on her head and started walking up on the grapes. Next thing I know, I'm in some dark place outside - where it's raining hard and hella lightning - only to notice the entrance way to the school was a graveyard...